Journals
A/N;; This is a 4-part oneshot collaboration between me [Kaycee-chan] & Ella-san.
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NAGI;;
I sighed as I looked out the window from the  reception room. I watched as night began to fall and people starting to  come into school after hours. “I should bite them all to death….”
I heard a chuckle come from the boy sitting at my desk, “Nagi-chan it’s just a prom; you don’t have to stay.”
I  turned to look at Tsuyoshi, who was a sophomore, my boss, and long time  friend. “Of course I do, the disciplinary committee must make sure that  nothing happens to this school.”
He sighed, “Whatever you say…”
I glared at him, “what are you doing here? You can go home you know.”
“Someone has to protect you from all those seniors.”
“I  don’t need protection.” I turned back around and glanced outside again.  There I saw him again, Sawada Shinichi. I bite my lower lip as I looked  at him; he looked so handsome in his tuxedo, very neat and clean. As I  watched him, I saw that he had brought Daidouji Rin, a royal pain, and  trouble maker to boot.
Rin was wearing a blue almost  sequenced strapless dress with blue high heels. I sighed as I overheard  Rin’s and Shinichi’s conversation on how she completely didn’t match the  theme of their prom.
“R—Rin-chan, you did understand the  theme of our prom when I told it to you?” I couldn’t see too clearly but  he looked shocked a bit.
“What? I’m the Rain Guardian. I  can’t just abandon my color. Although, I was sorely tempted to wear red.  I like red. Red is cool.” I watch as she smiled at him. He chuckled and  walked with Rin inside. I sort of wish that I could’ve heard his laugh a  little clearer.
I watched them walk inside when I  realized something. “It’s her isn’t it Tsuyoshi-kun.” He sat up in his  chair as I turned to face him, showing him my playful smile. “Daidouji  Rin? You wanted to see her right?”
“I never said anything about a girl, especially one two years older than me.”
“But you like her; I can tell that you want her.”
“Like how I can tell you want Shinichi-san.”
“I don’t like him!”
“I could introduce you two; I am Varia Boss.”
“Oh shut up.” I checked my watch. “It’s time anyway.”
I started to head for the door when Tsuyoshi grabbed my arm. “You’re going like this?”
“Eh?”  I looked at my outfit. I was wearing jeans, a red tank top, and my blue  jacket with the disciplinary committee badge.  “So. Look at yourself.”
“What? I’m wearing a normal coat and tie.”
“Normal? It’s a collared white shirt, black pants, and tie.”
“I prepared to patrol in style; so, I don’t stand out.”
“You did it because you wanted to impress her.”
He sighed as he handed me a bag. “Just in case, I brought you this to change into.”
He handed me a bag that had some clothes in it. “What the-”
“ Boss’s orders for you to not stand out as much as you already do.”
I glared, “At least I’m not in a blue dress…”
“Just go.”
“Fine.”  I walked to the nearest bathroom to get changed. When I got in there  and opened the bag, I saw that he had ordered me to wear a skirt with a  fancy blouse, both being shades of indigo. “I’ll kill him.” I sighed as I  changed quickly into those clothes, but I did keep to my original  outfit some. I saw that he did pack some cheerleader type shorts; so, I  wore them under my skirt. I put my blouse on but pinned the disciplinary  badge to it to make sure no one forgot who I was. As I put my old  clothes in the bag, I walked out of the stall and looked in the mirror.  My pineapple hairstyle clashed with my outfit; so, for this time only, I  let my hair hand down naturally. I sighed and carefully walked outside  where Tsuyoshi was standing. “Better?”
“Much. Now,” He  took that bag away and threw it in the reception room, giving me my  regular black bag back, “Let’s go; It’s started.”
Both of  us walked toward the gym, silently. If it wasn’t for certain things, I  think neither of us would be here. He sighed as we both entered the gym.  I was in shock of what I saw. Everything looked so lovely, who knew  that a prom looked so normal. I didn’t notice Tsuyoshi glancing at me.  “I’ll patrol over there.” He pointed next to the food table. “You know  just in case of a food fight.”
I playfully smiled as I saw  that Rin-san was standing there. “Sure. I’ll stay near the tables in  that dark corner.” I went my way as he went his.
I leaned  against the wall and watched as many seniors danced the night away. I  thought about my prom too; how it’ll be my night. A night where I won’t  be the head of the disciplinary committee but just Nagi, a normal  everyday teen. I smiled as I was thinking about the thoughts, looking at  the ground, dreaming. I happened to glance back up when I remembered I  was on duty now. When I looked up, I saw Shinichi walk towards my way…  But of course he wasn’t walking to talk to me; he was walking to take a  seat at the tables. I stopped staring and looked to the side, trying not  to focus too well when Yui, a popular, pretty girl came up to Shinichi.
“Hey, Shinichi-kun. I was wondering where you where.”
“Oh, hi Yui-san.”
“I see you’re not with that girl… Rin? Right?”
“Yes,  Rin-chan is getting me a drink.” I knew from the sound of his voice  that she was the least person that he wanted to run into tonight.
“Well, how about we have a dance Shinichi-kun? You look like you haven’t had any fun lately.”
“No  thank you Yui-san. Rin-chan will be here shortly with my drink.” I  looked up and over at Tsuyoshi, who was talking to Rin. From the looks  of it, it wasn’t going over too well but fine.
“Why don’t you go out with me instead?”
“E—Excuse me?”
“Ok… So you’re not dating that girl; so, why not me?”
“I’m not interested in girls currently…”
“Fine. Then just give me one dance.”
“…”  I could tell that he was nervous about this talk with Yui-san. I  honestly wondered what he was trying to do? Let her off easy or hard? I  glanced back over where Tsuyoshi and Rin were, but, to my shock, neither  was there. Tsuyoshi was standing by the DJ person while Rin, who seemed  to be arguing with Yui, was now standing by Shinichi.
“Just leave him alone. He doesn’t want to go out with you.”
“Of course he doesn’t want to say yes in front of you. Just run along already.”
I  could see the anger build in Rin as she started to fight with Yui-san.  In those few second, people started to gather; the guys encouraging the  girls. “I knew I was going to be needed.” I quickly took my trident and  jumped into the middle of the two. “Break it up now!” I shouted at them  as I landed on my feet with my trident in hand. Everyone backed away as I  stepped in.
“Why are you here in a senior prom?”
I turned to Yui, “To break up petty fights like this one.”
I  noticed that Rin backed away a bit; I couldn’t tell from her face but  she looked upset, as if this girl ruined her prom. I turned to Yui as  she grabbed my Lens and jerked it off. “For ruining our prom, I’ll just  keep this.”
I glared at her and kicked her feet from  underneath her causing the Lens to fly out of her hands. I pointed the  trident at her neck. “Listen, if you don’t want me to discipline you  right here, I suggest that you all go back to dancing and having fun or I  shall just send you all home.” I turned and glared at the remaining  crowd. They all left mumbling some things and I let Yui go. I sighed as I  put my trident up. “Great,” mumbling to myself, “now I have to find  that Lens.” I turned and bumped into no one other than Sawada Shinichi,  who had my necklace in his hands.
“You might want this back, right Nagi-san?” He held the Lens out by the chain.
I  stared at him frozen, scared and nervous of what to do next. I could  feel myself getting hotter, maybe starting to blush. So, without another  word, I grabbed the necklace from his hands and ran. I ran as fast as I  could to the reception room. I left Shinichi standing there, as I shut  and locked the door. My heart was beating faster, knowing that I, most  likely, missed my one shot to talk to him.
I walked over  to the couch and sat down, holding the Lens in my hands. “Arigato  Shinichi-san…” I smiled and put it back on. There was no way that I was  going back; until I realized that I had my job that still needed done.  “….” After calming back down, I put the Lens back on and headed towards  the gym again.
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SHINICHI;;
The  senior prom would be a disaster.  I am really sure of that. Well, not  really a disaster. Fiasco, maybe? I am not really cut-out for social  gatherings for I haven’t attended one before (if you don’t count the  other prom nights), and I would’ve gladly skipped this one out, if only  Rin-chan didn’t plead. I mean, who could actually say no to a girl who’s  pouting in front of you and saying, “Please” almost a thousand times. I  sure can’t say no to her. And also, she said one thing about the senior  prom which made me get my hopes up.
“R—Rin-chan, you did  understand the theme of our prom when I told it to you?” I asked Rin as  we walked towards the gym where the prom is being held. She was  currently wearing a blue sequenced dress and navy blue high heels. She  was going to be out of place in our prom since the theme is black and  white, and hence, my outfit; a classic tuxedo.
“What? I’m  the Rain Guardian. I can’t just abandon my color. Although, I was sorely  tempted to wear red. I like red. Red is cool.” Rin-chan replied to my  inquiry. She added a smile for good measure.
I could only  chuckle at her words. She was the only person I know who’s proud of  being a mafioso. I’m pretty sure, if she could just tell everyone that  she’s my Rain Guardian, she would’ve told the entire student body.
As  we entered the gym, I could feel the eyes of the people there on the  both of us, more specifically, on Rin-chan.  Well, I could not blame  them; she was the only one who looked out of place. Beautiful, yes; but  still out of place.
Rin looked a bit fidgety due to the  stares but she tried to keep it down. She’s still not used on being the  center of attention. “I—I’ll go and get you some punch, 
il mio amore,”  she whispered to me and she hurried towards the table where the food is  placed. And as for me, I need to look for some place to sit.
All the tables were full and the only free ones where on the side, where 
she was standing. And by 
her,  I meant Nagi Spade. Nagi Spade. Nagi Spade. If I could describe her in  one word, it would be beautiful, or snobby. Yeah… Beautiful. She’s very  beautiful. Probably the most beautiful girl I have ever seen (aside from  my mother). I tried to act normally as I walked towards the empty table  which is near her. I wanted to talk to her, I really do. But I don’t  have the guts to, since she’s always with Tsuyoshi-san. Tsuyoshi-san is  the upcoming Varia Boss. An unlikely friendship developed between us,  and I would like to keep it that way, because Tsuyoshi-san is a good man  and can be a great ally.
 I stared straight ahead as I  walked to the empty table. I wanted to look at Nagi while doing that,  but I can’t bring myself to. If I do that, maybe she’ll think that I’m a  stalker or something. But I can’t help myself. I stole a glance on her  way, only to see that she’s looking away. Maybe she’s keeping an eye on  someone. And as I sat down on the seat, Yui-san, a classmate of ours,  approached me.
I know that Yui-san likes me but I do not  like her back. I don’t mean to be rude, but I don’t like her attitude.  She’s using her popularity and beauty to gain advantage on the others,  and that’s what I despise the most. And also, Yui-san is your typical  “dumb blonde,” not that I have anything against blondes. It’s just  Yui-san is the type of person who doesn’t know how to solve the Gaussian  Elimination Method.
Her asking me to dance, is one of the  things I expected to happen tonight (Rin-chan even joked about it  before), but I didn’t still know how to handle it. Should I be rude or  not? Should I push her away or just politely decline? Then Rin-chan  arrived, holding two glasses of champagne. She and Yui-san had a fight;  the former wanting the latter to go away and stop bothering me, while  the latter wanting the former to go away too.
And then  Nagi-san interfered with the fight before it escalated even more.  Rin-chan looked pretty irked with Yui-san and I’m sure that she’s going  to punch her anytime soon, but luckily Nagi-san stepped in. Rin-chan was  quick to back down, knowing it would do her no good if she defied the  Disciplinary Committee President, but Yui-san had a different mind pace.  She grabbed Nagi-san’s necklace (which according to my father and  Chrome-san is Daemon Spade’s Lens. Daemon Spade-san is the 1st  Generation Mist Guardian of the Vongola.), saying that she’ll keep it  for ruining the prom night. But Nagi-san was quick and she kicked  Yui-san on her shins, causing the girl to topple down and releasing the  necklace. The necklace skidded in front of me, so I picked it up,  approached Nagi-san and said, “You might want this back, right  Nagi-san?” I held the necklace by its chain, making the Lens dangle  around.
I could see her quickly turn red. I wanted to say  something, but I was too scared, thinking that I might scare her away.  But I guess I don’t need to say anything else because she just grabbed  the necklace from me without a word and ran away. I guess I should’ve  said something. I only sighed as I sat back down, thinking how I missed a  rare opportunity to talk to Nagi-san.
“Rin-chan, what’s  wrong?” I asked my guardian as I saw her drinking her champagne rather  glumly. “Is there something that’s bothering you?” I tucked a stray hair  behind her ear and brushed her bangs out of her eyes.
“No. Nothing’s wrong.” Rin-chan replied, trying to remove the disappointment in her voice.
But I knew better. “Is it because of Yui-san?” I asked, now taking a drink of my champagne.
Rin-chan sighed, setting the glass down. “
Capo,  we’re graduating soon. I just want to have a normal high school dance  before I say goodbye to this pseudo-normal life. Is that too much to  ask? I’ve been raised around the mafia world. The dances and parties  that I attended are hardly normal. And remember the prom last year?  Someone ambushed us in the middle of the prom night. 
Capo, for once, I just want to be the normal girl.” Rin-chan lamented.
Of  course I knew all about her sentiments. She hardly had a normal life  before she came here to Japan. Her father is a mafia boss before and she  attended the mafia school. She would always be in the Varia Base,  hanging out with the members of the Varia Assassination Squad. And so,  she was more than glad to attend high school here in Japan, but being  one of the guardians of the Vongola means that you’re a constant target,  so we hardly had a normal life here. But I want to remove those  thoughts from her so I remarked, “I saw you a while ago talking to  Tsuyoshi-san.”
The somewhat sad look on her face was replaced by irritation. “So?” she huffed, drinking her champagne once again.
“What do you mean by so? I thought you like him.”
“Liked. Past tense, 
il mio amore. I do not like him anymore.”
“And why is that?”
“He’s a jerk.”
“A  jerk?” I tried my best to not laugh out loud. How the hell did she  acquire the thoughts that Tsuyoshi-san is a jerk? From what I have heard  from the girls all over the school, Tsuyoshi-san is a gentleman. Very  kind and very charming too. But why is Rin-chan saying that—
“He’s a total flirt,” she said.
I could not believe what I am hearing. “How can Tsuyoshi be a flirt? Rin-chan I think you’re just overreacting to things.”
“I am certainly not, 
capo!”  Rin-chan said, glaring at me. “Are you blind? Can you not see how he  talks to girls around him?!” And to prove her point, she pointed towards  Tsuyoshi-san who was talking to a couple of girls.
“I still don’t see it, Rin-chan.”
Rin-chan stood up instantly and glared at me. “I cannot believe you, 
capo! Just because you’re a guy, you’re siding with that jerk?!”
“N—No!  I’m not, R—Rin-chan,” I started to say, but I never got to finish the  rest of my sentence because she had stormed away. I sighed. Maybe she’s  PMSing right now.
I wanted to go home already, but I could  never leave Rin-chan, so I decided to stay a little bit more, or at  least until Rin-chan says that she wants to go back already. I stood up  and was about to approach a classmate of mine when I accidentally bumped  into someone. I turned around to see who it was and to apologize when I  saw a familiar blue hair. It was Nagi-san.
I must’ve  looked very stupid. Just standing there and staring at her. I really  wanted to say something, I no matter how much I rack my brains, I  couldn’t find anything to say. I even forgot to apologize to her! Crap.  How stupid could I actually get? I could see her turning red once again.  W—What if she runs away again? Crap. “H—Hi. Y—You’re Nagi-san, right?  We never really had the chance to talk formally.” I said, offering her a  lopsided smile. I want to kill myself for sounding so lame. But I can’t  do anything about it anymore. I’ve already said those words, so just to  back it up, I held out my hand and said, “I’m Sawada Shinichi. It’s  n—nice to finally talk to the Mist Guardian of the Varia Assassination  Squad.”
I really must’ve sounded so lame because Nagi-san  never said a word. She just turned around and walked away. Damn it. What  am I thinking? Of course Nagi-san won’t talk to me. She’s with the  Varia, and I’m the soon-to-be Vongola boss. And also, she’s  Tsuyoshi-san’s girlfriend. I sighed. Maybe disaster was the right term  after all.
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TSUYOSHI;;
I  laid back in the chair and relaxed as it was almost time for prom  night. It wasn’t mine prom, but prom for the seniors tonight. I sighed  as I enjoyed sitting at Nagi’s disciplinary committee desk. I looked at  Nagi, a blue haired freshmen girl, as she I overheard her wanting to  ‘bite the prom goers to death.’ I couldn’t help but chuckle at the idea  though. “Nagi-chan, it’s just prom; you don’t have to stay.”
The  girl turned to me and she appeared to be glaring. “Of course I do, the  disciplinary committee must make sure nothing happens to this school.”
I sighed. I forgot how seriously she took her position all because Hibari-san had approved of it. “Whatever you say…”
This time, she really did glare at me. “What are you doing here? You can go home you know.”
I  had to admit; she was right there. I was never part of her disciplinary  committee even though I helped her a lot. “Someone has to protect you  from all those seniors.”
“I don’t need protection.” She  turned back around and looked outside. Sometimes the 15 year old can be  so stubborn. I leaned back in the chair and put my hands behind my head.  At least I get to go to prom… After a while, Nagi spoke to me again.  “It’s her isn’t it Tsuyoshi-kun.” I sat up in my chair, waiting for a  response as to the accusation. “Daidouji Rin? You wanted to see her,  right?”
“I never said anything about a girl, especially one two years older than me.”
“But you like her; I can tell you want her.”
Wow…  I wanted to tell her how perverted that sounded but decided not to. So,  I backfired instead. “Like how I can tell you want Shinichi-san.”
“I don’t like him!”
“I can introduce you two; I am Varia Boss.”
“Oh shut up.” She checked her watch. “It’s time anyway.”
She  started to head out the door when I swiftly caught her by the arm.”  You’re going like this?” I looked at her outfit. Jeans, tank, jacket…  Not attractive, especially when you are trying to impress someone.
“Eh?” She looked at her outfit then back at me. “So. Look at yourself.”
“What? I’m wearing a normal coat and tie.” I was thankful that it didn’t take much for a guy to say that he looks dressed up.
“Normal?” She looked at me funny like I just told her an unfunny joke. “It’s a collared white shirt, black pants, and tie.”
“I prepared to patrol in style; so, I don’t stand out.”
“You did it because you wanted to impress her.”
I sighed as I grabbed a bag that I had prepared for her under the desk. “Just in case, I brought you this to change into.”
I handed Nagi the bag. “What the-”
“Bosses’s orders for you to not stand out as much as you already do.”
She glared at me. “At least I’m not in a blue dress.”
I was confused as to why she mentioned a blue dress but decided not to press on. “Just go.”
“Fine.” She walked to the nearest bathroom.
I  stood outside the door, thinking about what Nagi said. ‘To impress her  huh?’ Of course I wanted to impress Daidouji Rin. She was very pretty  even though she wasn’t too bright sometimes. She was the school’s muse  and the Rain Guardian for the main family. I sighed as I leaned against  the wall. Of course, Rin-san was two years older than me so I actually  had no chance unless I acted like the perfect gentlemen.
Still…  I looked at the bathroom door. Nagi has had a crush on Sawada Shinichi  since she first saw that man in middle school. Since I was Varia boss to  be, I had meet Shinichi before schooling and we are somewhat friends.  Still the time for my guardians to meet his guardians wouldn’t be coming  up in a few more years; so, Nagi hasn’t formally meet Shinichi, just  admiring him.
“Better?” Nagi walked out of the bathroom, looking very beautiful with her hair down and in a fancier outfit.
“Much.  Now,” I took the bag that had her old clothes in it, threw them in the  reception room, and gave her the regular black bag that she carries,  “Let’s go; It’s started.”
Both of us walked toward the gym  silently, neither of us daring to step out in front of the other. If it  wasn’t for the fact that I wanted to see Rin, I don’t think I would’ve  helped Nagi with this job no matter how good of a friend she is. When we  walked in the gym, I noticed that Nagi was daydreaming. I could tell it  in her eyes that she was enjoying this; she should because she’s rarely  been to a party like this. “I’ll patrol over there.” I pointed next to  the food table. “You know just in case of a food fight.” This wasn’t my  only reason though; I saw that Rin-san was there and this was my  opportunity.
I glanced back at Nagi when I saw her  flashing that playful smile. Every time I saw that look, I’ve either  regretted something or done something. “Sure. I’ll stay near the tables  in that dark corner.” She went on her way without another word.
I  sighed as I walked towards that table. Dark corners suited someone who  didn’t like to be the center of attention. She may be tough and scary  but she’s still a girl who crushes on guys and gets shy, especially to  those she knows.
Before I knew it, I was already standing  at the table where Rin was. She hadn’t noticed me yet only just looking  at the choices of drinks. Nervously, I decided to try and talk to her;  this was putting all my skills to the test. “Hello there Miss Rin-san.”  She turned to me and sort of stared at me. I had no idea what she was  thinking; so, I decided to fully introduce myself. “My name is  Tsuyoshi,” I said as I held out my hand to her.
She didn’t automatically take it but eventually she did. I probably looked so stupid to her. “Wait, aren’t you a sophomore?”
I  knew my age was going to matter. How could a girl like her fall for a  guy who was two years younger. “Yes. I am here helping out the  disciplinary committee.”
“Oh,” she didn’t sound shocked  much, but she continued to look at me, which was fine by me if I hadn’t  acquired so many stares already. “Who are you? I mean I think I heard  that name before…. Outside of school,” she added. Obviously, I knew the  answer to this.
I leaned in a whispered in her ear, “I am  Tsuyoshi, soon to be boss of the Varia, Vongola’s Elite Independent  Assassination Squad.”
I straightened myself up and looked at Rin. She appeared to be blushing maybe, just a tiny bit. “Might I ask the same to you?”
“Well,” I think she smirked at me and started to say proudly, “I am-”
Before  she could finish, some girls had cut her off trying to get my  attention. I kept a straight face on, turned, and smiled to the girls. I  ended up talking to them a bit which was the complete opposite then  what I wanted to do. What I really wanted was to tell the girls off and  talk to Rin.
I sighed as I looked up to notice that Rin  was gone and with Shinichi. Of course, she would go back to her boss. I  wanted to punch myself for loosing and destroying the opportunity to  talk to Rin.
I decided to walk over to the DJ booth; maybe  working on the music would help. I walked over there when I noticed  Nagi, Shinichi, Rin, and this other girl in some kind of a fight. I  watched how when Nagi stepped in, almost everyone left. I watched as  Shinichi held Nagi’s necklace, which was that horrible Daemon’ Spade’s  Devil Lens. I was sort of hoping that she would talk to him, but  instead, as I predicted, she took it and ran.
I did a  small face palm as I watched her; it was pathetic for her to run. I  sighed, as I heard my name being called. There stood about three more  girls wanting to talk to me. Honestly, I’m not interested in them. Like  they would be interested in me, if they were to find out the truth about  me being in the mafia.
I, not wanting to hurt their  feelings, talked to them politely, paying attention to what they were  saying. I glanced over at Rin, who was shouting at Shinichi. She looked  furious and upset and I watched her leave him alone.
I  stopped staring at Rin and went back talking to the girls who were  waiting for my response. I continued to talk to the girls as long as  they were there and listened. Although, it was the polite thing to do. I  knew I had to be a gentleman. At least, they entertained me for the  rest of the night.
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RIN;;
“Hello there Miss Rin-san.”
I  was in the food table, thinking about what drink I should get for us,  when I heard those words. I turned around and saw Tsuyoshi standing  there.
“My name is Tsuyoshi,” he said, holding out his hand, waiting for me to shake it.
I  was rather reluctant to shake it, but I don’t see any harm on a simple  handshake, and so, I took it and shook his hand. Of course I know him.  He’s popular in our school, and he’s a jerk. A no-good, two-faced jerk. I  really can’t believe that I used to like him. Even though he’s 2 years  younger than I am— Wait. He’s 2 years younger than me, so it means that  he’s a sophomore, but why is he in our prom. Only seniors are allowed in  here. “Wait, aren’t you a sophomore?” I asked.
His answer was a simple, “Yes. I am here helping out the disciplinary committee.”
Ah.  No surprises there. He’s frequently seen with Nagi-san, the head of the  Disciplinary Committee, and so it’s quite believable if he says that  he’s actually helping out the Disciplinary Committee. There are rumors  going around the school that Nagi-san’s actually his girlfriend. I never  really believed rumors because they were never right, but this time, I  think it’s the actual truth. The two of them are always seen together  and the two of them would act very sweetly to each other. Gah. It makes  me want to puke or something. N—Not that I’m j—jealous or anything! I  wanted to reply with something more sensible, but all I can say was an  “Oh.”
It was very awkward for me to talk to him  face-to-face. Why? Because number 1, he’s a sophomore and I am a senior.  Number 2, even though he’s 2 years younger than me, he’s way taller  than me. Number 3, he’s the boyfriend of the scariest person in Nami  High (aside from Hibari-san who still likes to patrol around). Number 4,  I actually went to a phase where I liked him. Take note of the keyword  liked. And number 5, his fangirls will kill me for actually talking to  him.
Something clicked. I never really dwelled about it,  but Shinichi-kun told me that the soon-to-be Varia Boss, the one who’s  going to replace our precious Xanxus-sama, is a guy named Tsuyoshi, and  he’s just around the same age as we are. Could he be the same Tsuyoshi  Shin-kun’s talking about? Well, there’s only one way to find out, and I  hope he’s not the type who gives roundabout answers. “Who are you? I  mean I think I heard that name before…. Outside of school.” I asked him.
I  never really saw his expression after asking that question because he  immediately leaned closer to me and whispered on my ear, “I am Tsuyoshi,  soon to be boss of the Varia, Vongola’s Elite Independent Assassination  Squad.”
Oh damn. I could feel myself getting hotter. I’m  probably blushing right now and looking like a total idiot. Oh great.  Just great. He’s the last person whom I want to see me blushing like an  idiot. And I was right. He’s the same Tsuyoshi who’s going to replace  Xanxus-sama. I wondered how could a wimpy-looking guy like him was able  to beat the infamous Varia Boss. I mean, Xanxus-sama is a very scary  man, especially when he’s in one of his fits. I could still remember the  time I first stepped into the Varia base. Xanxus-sama was throwing a  fit—something about his steak not being cooked really well. He was  throwing bottles everywhere and I got hit squarely on the head. It was  really painful—anyway, all I’m saying is, Xanxus-sama is a very  dangerous man, and the idea of him being defeated by the kid in front of  me is a laughable idea.
I noticed that he straightened up a little bit before he asked me, “Might I ask the same to you?”
Oho.  I’m the type of person who’s open about my identity as the Rain  Guardian. I looked proudly at him and said, “Well, I am—” But I was  never able to finish my sentence because it was drowned by the voices of  the daft bimbos who started to swarm around Tsuyoshi.
Truth  to be told, I was quite disappointed with Tsuyoshi. I thought he would  prefer to talk to me rather than to those girls because we had something  in common, but no, he picked them. I am not sad. I’m just disappointed  with him. Yes… Disappointed. And so, without another word, I took two  glasses of champagne and walked back to my boss. But that wasn’t an  option because he was conversing (or being harassed) to Yui-san, our  classmate. When I was at the table where they are, I tried to send  Yui-san away, and then one thing led to another. The next thing I knew  is Nagi-san stepping up and stopping us.
I… I was really  upset. I could never have the normal school dance I was wishing for. The  school dances I always attend ends up in a total disaster. I think I  have a bad luck or something.
“Rin-chan, what’s wrong?” I  heard Shin-kun ask me. After the whole Yui-san thing, we just sat by the  table and drank the champagne that I brought. “Is there something  that’s bothering you?” he asked me again and he brushed the hair out of  my eyes. He would always do that whenever he’s asking me what’s wrong.
Of course, I won’t tell him what’s wrong. “No. Nothing’s wrong.” I replied.
Bu it seems that he knows me too well for he asked me again, “Is it because of Yui-san?”
Well, it’s now or never. “
Capo,  we’re graduating soon. I just want to have a normal high school dance  before I say goodbye to this pseudo-normal life. Is that too much to  ask? I’ve been raised around the mafia world. The dances and parties  that I attended are hardly normal. And remember the prom last year?  Someone ambushed us in the middle of the prom night. 
Capo, for  once, I just want to be the normal girl.” I lamented. I wanted to  emphasize to him that for once, just this once, I want to know how it  feels like to be a normal girl.
I should’ve known better. My problem wasn’t on his mind. “I saw you a while ago talking to Tsuyoshi-san,” he said.
 What  the hell?! Here I was, moaning over on how I want to experience how to  be a normal girl, and he drops the subject about my silly, little crush  on that jerk?! I huffed and said, “So?”
“What do you mean by so? I thought you like him,” he said as he continued to prod on the issue.
I wanted to stop the conversation about that guy as soon as possible so I said, “Liked. Past tense, 
il mio amore.  I do not like him anymore.” So what? I called him il mio amore. That  doesn’t mean I’m in love with Shin-kun or something. I just like to call  him that.
And I forgot that Shin-kun could be a very stubborn guy. He replied with a, “And why is that?”
“He’s a jerk.”
“A  jerk?” he asked. I noticed that he was trying his best not to laugh out  loud or something, and so, I said, “He’s a total flirt.”
And  the last thing I needed from Shin-kun was a lecture on how I was  overreacting about things. Is he actually blind? Can he not see how that  kid would talk to the girls around him? Oh please. That Tsuyoshi kid is  using his charms to get what he wants. And before it could even turn  into a full-scale fight, I left Shin-kun. I walked out of the gym and  proceeded to walk around the grounds of the school.
“What are you doing here?”
The  same voice caught my attention twice this night, and I’m not in the  mood to face him right now, so I just continued to walk, pretending I  didn’t hear him.
“Hey, I asked you, what are you—are you  crying?” Tsuyoshi asked as he walked towards me. For a wimpy looking kid  like him, his footsteps sound heavy.
I hastily wiped my tears away and turned around, not wanting him to see me in this kind of state. “I—I’m not crying.” I said.
“Sure.”  Tsuyoshi replied. I couldn’t tell if he was being sarcastic or not. And  his next actions surprised me. He took my hand and placed his  handkerchief on my palm. “You can return it to me next time we see each  other.” And with that, he left, probably to continue his rounds.
I  stood there for a long time. One part of me says that I was just  hallucinating, but the other part of me screams that it really happened.  Sometimes, I just really don’t know what to believe anymore.
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